Sometimes I feel the days just pass us by and that I'm not appreciating them enough. I truly want to enjoy every minute I have with you in these "babyhood" days. I feel like time is just slipping through my fingers and I have moments of panic because I realize they're never coming back. I sit and wonder if I'm doing all I can for you. That I'm spending my time with you and truly mentally being there. That's a downside of being a new mom-I honestly forget so many things. I'll be talking to your Dad and let my sentences trail off. Or I think I've said something but in reality, I've had an imaginary conversation because it's all in my head. I think your Dad thinks I'm going crazy :) Anyway, sorry for the tangent. I just feel you're growing up so fast and I just can't accept that! So as usual, whenever my emotions are swirling and I can't quite explain how I feel, I turn to music. I hope one day you'll appreciate good music because it has a way of healing those cracks in your heart. One of my favorite bands is "The Killers" and I recently heard this song by them. Enjoy my precious boy.
Be Still
Be still
And go on to bed
Nobody knows what lies ahead
And life is short
To say the least
We're in the belly of the beast
Be still
Wild and young
Long may your innocence reign
Like shells on the shore
And may your limits be unknown
And may your efforts be your own
If you ever feel you can't take it anymore
Don't break character
You've got a lot of heart
Is this real or just a dream?
Rise up like the sun
Labor till the work is done
Be still
One day you'll leave
Fearlessness on your sleeve
When you've come back, tell me what did you see
What did you see
Was there something out there for me?
Be still
Close your eyes
Soon enough you'll be on your own
Steady and straight
And if they drag you through the mud
It doesn't change what's in your blood
(Over chains)
When they knock you down
Don't break character
You've got a lot of heart
Is this real or just a dream?
Be still
Be still
Be still
Be still
Over rock and chain
Over sunset plain
Over trap and snare
When you're in too deep
In your wildest dream
In your made up scheme
When they knock you down
When they knock you down
Don't break character
You've got sooooo much heart
Is this real or just a dream?
Oh Rise up like the sun
And labor till the work is done
Rise up like the sun
Labor till the work is
Rise up like the sun
And labor till the work is done
Lincoln, I'll love you forever, I'll love you for always, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.
Love,
Your Mother
